Brief Break of Silence

So I decided that I needed to break my silence briefly. I’m going to go back into silence for another few days to a week after this. I haven’t completely recharged yet. Be patient with me.

If you read my blog on a regular basis, you have seen that politics and tragedies rarely come into my posts. Sometimes yes they do. More than they used to. Here’s why I tend to stay away from politics and tragedies: My mind doesn’t work politically and it rarely comprehends tragedy. But then who can comprehend tragedy? With politics, I can understand but I have to dwell on it a long time and I have to almost over-educate myself to feel like I can speak on it. And with some of these things I am late getting to the party with talking about them. Like talking about Vietnam in the 60’s 2 years ago (okay that’s a tad over-dramatic but you get the point) I’ll try to keep this post light as possible because I don’t want a heavy post today so please don’t take anything personally. I mean everything with the best of intentions.

There’s been things going on. North Korea hates the U.S. and bombs went off at the Boston Marathon. I understand people hate the U.S. and are they justified? I don’t know. Maybe? I haven’t educated myself much on this North Korea situation only from the VlogBrothers (or this). Right now, that’s not in the fore front of my mind. So silly me, I don’t think I’m going to die from North Koreans right now. I have a better chance of dying from a bomb running a race.

Who does that? (Oh, by the way, I changed the subject to the Boston Marathon) They were innocent people. I know, random person who planted the bomb, that you hate the U.S. and want us all to die but really, bombing a race in where people, including a little girl, die is not the way to do it. I know we can’t all have the same mentality where we can all sit down and talk things out. There are people out there that violence like this is justified and sometimes brute force might be the answer for people to get the point. But a marathon? I don’t get it. Why there at that time? And as horrid as this is, I’m so jaded on tragedy. I hate that I feel this way. There’s been so much going on that I’ve guarded my heart so much that I’m jaded. Grr. But my sincerest prayers and thoughts go out to the families. No one should have to lose a loved one like this.

If this didn’t make sense. Sorry!

Enough ranting. Here’s an update on my life. There was a storm on Sunday Bismarck got about 2 feet of snow, we got like 8 inches. So looking forward to warm weather. I finished A Game of Thrones and am now reading Treasure Island. Why haven’t I read Treasure Island before? It’s amazing and I’m really enjoying it. I painted a ceiling tile for the museum yesterday and now have to climb up and put it on and no one is here to spot me on the ladder. Just in case I fall off the ladder and knock myself unconscious and have to go to the emergency room. I figured out crocheting kind of. Random guy is now considered my boyfriend in my circle of friends and only because we don’t know his name and he seems to like to talk to me the most. And I’m the most single? I don’t know, but he’s my boyfriend until we find out a name. He doesn’t know this, by the way.

I’ll be back. Soon-ish. I’m not ready to come back as much as I was. But this is a start. I’ll try to pick subjects where they’re more light-hearted and more me. Politics and tragedies aren’t usually me. I’m books, knitting, crocheting and awkward moments.

P.S. If you understand the North Korea thing or have an opinion on the Boston Bombing, let me know. I’d like to understand.

New Mantra: I can do this?

So in good news, I got a slightly better night’s sleep last night so I might be able to pull off the week. I think I was just exhausted from lack of sleep. AND I think I’m going to be able to pull this kids event once again. Though I’m still stressed. I can do this. You might hear that a lot in the next few posts. I can do this. I CAN do this. I can DO this. I can do THIS! If I repeat it, it will come true. If you want to come help or watch me run this event, you’re more than welcome to.

Ever have that one person in your life that their voice is like nails on a chalkboard to you? I have a vendor like that. He called me toady and he’s going out of business because he is writing a book. Just to give you an audio he had a nasally, medium-pitched voice and it kind of grated my ears. He proceeded to tell me that he about this guy who died and left his money to a Christian charity and he had to move his storage and how amazing his product sells. Then he asked me how the desert in Arizona was…….I live in North Dakota. Thank you. He said he was from Jersey. Does that mean he thinks that all states to the west run together? It’s quite a stretch from North Dakota to Arizona. Just saying. I mean I wouldn’t mind the winters in Arizona. They’re probably better than North Dakota winters. This phone call made no sense. I really would have had the guy take a breathalyzer or drug test to make sure he was sober. But maybe that’s a little harsh. So dude, in the one in a quadrillion chance that you’re reading this and you called……….no disrespect?

Have you ever noticed how many fillers we use while speaking? I was thinking about this while talking to Vendor guy. How many ums, uhs, ands, sos and erms do we use whiles speaking to a person or group? In high school we had to give speeches in English Class. Junior year we had a Swedish foreign exchange student and she could NOT stop using erm. (p.s. I have a funny story with her and a box elder bug, I’ll blog about it sometime.) We also had a guy that couldn’t stop using uh and he got docked on it. He was from a big family (10 kids) and our English teacher made the rule after one of his siblings that for an introductory speech they couldn’t introduce their siblings, spouses and nieces and nephews. It had to be about them, as an individual. I am always amazed with people who are great speakers. I was in speech and drama in high school and wasn’t necessarily good but loved experiencing the ones that were good. I wish everyone spoke well. And that I could use sign language…….

Now it’s gonna get a little political.

In other news. Actual news. Not just hear say. North Dakota’s Governor Jack Dalrymple (I’m kind of relieved he got reelected to a point because I was just learning how to pronounce his last name CORRECTLY at the last election. He took over for Hoeven when he went to the senate. I like Hoeven.) just signed an abortion bill that bans the procedure if a fetal heartbeat can be detected. This can be early as 6 weeks if I understand correctly. The governor also signed into law another measure that would make North Dakota the first to ban abortions based on genetic defects such as Down syndrome, and a measure that requires a doctor who performs abortions to be a physician with hospital-admitting privileges. It also makes us the hardest on abortion in the country. Now all this information did come from the Bismarck Tribune. I haven’t read any of these measures/laws myself. So I can’t say I am well-versed. My Facebook is all atwitter about it. I have mixed feelings.

Let me explain.

I am typically pro-life, yes that is partly because I am a Christian but mainly because I believe in life. I don’t understand, never have understood, how when you hear a heartbeat of the child in your womb, you can still call it a fetus. When does it become a life? I’m not trying to be smart, it is a legitimate question. If you can explain it to me, thank you.

I do believe that not every woman who carries for nine months is ready to be a mom and not fit to raise a child. I have 2 adopted uncles that are proof of that. Does that mean I agree with terminating pregnancy? No. It doesn’t. I agree with the choice of a woman to give legal custody of a child to someone who can take care of the child. But our foster care system, from my understanding, is not perfect. It needs tweaking.

Here is where I get the mixed feelings. I’m all for preserving the life of an unborn child. But where I have a problem is this measure got passed by a bunch of men. I don’t understand how these men can tell a woman what is right and what is wrong. It’s like we’ve gone back in history and women are the property of the men. Let me make the decision to have or not have an abortion,(which is never an option for me, personally) give the child up for adoption or keep the child. I have a friend that just got pregnant with her second and I don’t agree with this pregnancy but that doesn’t mean I can or can’t tell her what to do with the child, neither does the father who isn’t involved.

Am I crazy to think that these men can push through a measure on something like abortion and it be acceptable? Now like I said, I don’t agree with abortion, but I think this crossed the line. Obviously I have a problem with this because how many times do I post something with a political nature like this and then completely rant on it? Hardly ever. I just felt like I needed to put out my opinion on this.

Some people are also taking this into marriage equality. For me, this issue isn’t about marriage equality which I think should be touched on as well, but this is a different subject for me. Do I think a same sex couple should be able to adopt, yes. Some of these couples are better equiped to love than some straight couples. But that, to me isn’t the subject here.

This is obviously a hot topic and it could span off into a lot more conversations about who has the right to say who gets an abortion, doctors and abortions, when the proper time to have children is, it could go on and on. Like I said, I’m not an expert on this subject and not totally up on all the ins and outs of what was put before the governor, this was just a thought process. Relatively well-put together for a girl who’s going insane right?

I’ll try to put a more light-hearted post up next time.